last night i am trying to get our almost 5 month old son to stop fussing and go to sleep so that I can go to sleep, when suddenly i have one of those moments that for some reason you know you will always remember.
its just about pitch black in our room. i am snuggling wy against my chin and collarbone (such a good spot:)) and just like that he closes his eyes and falls asleep. i pray for my sweet little boy and the great man he will become. and despite the exhaustion only a parent with an infant can understand, i am just instantly filled with mushy mommy feelings- its so incredible how babies know their mommies. how wyatt knows me. he cant see me, im not making a sound, he just knows its me by smell and by feel. only mommy loves him and holds him and soothes him this way.
only mommy. only ME.
i love him so much. i kiss his soft sweet little wrinkled forehead. his weight feels so good on me, that i am almost sad to put him down. almost. i mean give me a break, i havent slept since february! :)
it's the best feeling in the world. even now, when i hold my "big" boys - it's the greatest feeling in the world. for all the frustration, i wouldn't trade my crazy life for anything in this world! miss you lady, xoxo
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